Nostalgia - Gone!

the ashes of a time long lost rise within me, fill themselves in me, trap me in their embrace, choke me, encircle me in a tornado of burned-out feelings. the vestiges of a moment far outlived make me cry, make me laugh, and attempt to steal what fire I have. the relics of an age now extinct push against me and I ache with fear, with panic although I don't know why. the remnants of an instant threaten to use me up, to burn me out, to suffocate me, until the feeling is -gone- and I feel lost without it.